Stumbling across a path full of rocks feeling the soles of your feet begin to numb out-- sort of how your heart feels after you have spent a decade trying to fix pot holes and pretending things were okay.. knowing they will never be the same ...
a decade has passed.
Blistered / numb feet --broken hearted and soul less -- your body was tortured but the fight is not yet over
.... I see through the rain something has always remained....
Through the storm -I- know that deep down ((you)) know ((we)) are too far in "this"" to Let Go....
You have ran away from the pain and realized your getting a different thrill a different high and wait your totally sober and not beaten or numb -- your walking away this time and not feeling one ounce of guilt.... You been doing this for a decade, and yet this new decade has started without a few selected people, and you are okay with that because you are slamming doors this time, and wont allow them to get slammed in your face..
The storm has not passed but the puddle you stand in is no longer filled with your tears -- For once you learned to love yourself while opening your eyes to your "Best Friend" yeah they stood in that storm with you ... Learning to control the storm you are able to see its not about the time spent making something work its about learning to use your time wisely. We all want
[[Something new and Not Something Old]]
Something new feels like something bad when something bad was all that you were use too. Is this some type of joke? In love with someone who has taken time to get to know you for who you are while ensuring you still smile through the storm umm is that possible??? They helped you push through it motivated / coached you to never give up... Your "Best Friend" doesn't tell you they will never leave your side they got your back or they will ride for you..This is something you already know. Never judging one another for the mistakes that you both made.. They are not mistakes they are now lessons in which helped you grow and learn... You grew from each experience while getting to know your "Best Friend" better so you are no longer bitter. It feels different all around.... you just have to wipe your eyes of the thick decade long smog...
You worked hard for one whole decade to prove "you are who you say you are"..
Your "Best Friend" showed you what exactly half the time can do to a "friendship" -- you were blind sided by the bold colors that not only burned your eyes but the vividness killed your soul slowly.. Poison flowed through your veins and "Best Friend" stood by picking the pieces up broom dust pan and a shoulder to cry on-- so its safe to....
Smile .. Laugh.. Feel Beautiful..
--this time things are different. This time you don't have to pretend... you have no questions... you walk around with your head a little higher a smile on your face and confidence in your heart because your "Best Friend" has opened you up to the New You and your New Beginning experience what you always dreamed of and understand that ----
You no longer have to be ((Afraid))
Does your "Best Friend" know how you feel?
you are no longer counting miles
because
you lost track counting your smiles....
Distance may not be "our friend"
right n o w
but "we wont fake it-- to make it"
"Best Friend"
this one is for you.
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